Disappointment in my family’s eyes

I have come to the realisation that no matter what I do I am a disappointment in my family’s eyes. No matter what I do, no matter how well I do I am never going to be anything more than the screw up who ruins everything.

When I was first diagnosed with depression and had to leave my job my own mother told me that I had ruined Christmas and that I should go back to the place that caused me to self harm. This was hard for me to hear.

Maybe I should just give up and just settle in to this situation. I tried to raise money to become self sufficient for the first time in my life and that did not go well… I got loads of scammers come after me and people who wanted me to do unethical things for money which I would not do… I am stuck in the situation where I feel completely alone… There is no one out there who will help me and there is nothing I can do about it except hope and pray that one day I will be able to leave the environment that causes me stress and seriously affects my wellbeing…

 

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2 thoughts on “Disappointment in my family’s eyes

    1. Thank you for your kind words. I try to make things better for me but its hard. I am trying by a mixture of go fund me and shoe string budget in my salary to save money to move and become a foster parent so I can make a difference in people’s lives. I put the go fund me page up but no one will donate but I will keep plugging it

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